Saturday, February 13, 2010

Hi Again

I welcome myself back into this blog.

It's as if I've just walked into my dusty apartment which I left for a few months. I reminisce as I pace around the cold familiar tiles. I remember how I used to talk about religion, relationships, family, government, career, and tons of racist and political subjects.

Today, I am 5 months into NS. I am now in ATGM platoon. Anti-Tank Guided Missile. Wanna know more?

Then talk to me.

Not much will change yet, regarding what I speak into this matrix.

There are times when I feel like I lost faith in God. There are times when my mom loses her faith in me and my future. And I am nobody to ask for faith in myself from anyone. Because I am still a nobody.

I feel excruciating pain again, as tears well up. Every drop filled with fear, insecurity in everything about myself and my future. But this will just be today, an occurrence once every few months.

Tomorrow I will wake up feeling stronger, more motivated. Because there is some sort of an unexplainable force that compels me to achieve this extraordinary mission that most people cannot comprehend. It is with this same force with which I am able to accept this mission into part of my life.

I will write another song soon.

And I will name the song, "There Must Be A Way..."

I love my girlfriend very much.

Happy Valentine's Day.

Stickwithme...

Tin

Justin, 00:36